New Guy Alert!!!!

I wish this happened everyday, but, there is definitely a new guy in my life. Let's see how long this one last. No, I'm just kidding. I have a new favorite mexican though, his name is Tony. And I don't usually date Mexicans, but he's awesome! He plays pool...works with cars...and he likes kids. Well, he kind of has to because he has 2 himself. The only downfall......he's 35! Wow, 11 years my senior! I think it's time I found a guy that was the same maturity level as me!
Damn straight!

Cupid Shuffle....lol!

Cupid is cruel. Have you ever realized that? He's a complete ass. And now he's playing with my heart again. Yes, that's right. Mr. Johnny Blake will be here tonight! You know sometimes I want to call him Johnny Blaze....lol! Isn't that the name of that guy from Ghostrider?

Baby news:
He or she is kicking up a storm. Especially on my right side. Which that is fine, but I'm still having pains on my left. And then all this stress with my dad and Eli is driving me bonkers. I haven't had a full night of unrelentless sleep in a while. It's to the point right now that my mother has ab out to step in.

But let's see how the weekend goes.

I love the way you lie....

So I finally told him. I was talking to him last night and I finally told him how I was really feeling...do you know how great it feels? But he had been drowning his sorrows with crown and coke and so I don't think he remembers. He said he would, but that's a man for you! ha ha
Anyways, so I am talking to another guy. He's very straight forward and he has rules...shit, he sounds like my dad. I don't think I need that! He's cute, but not better looking than you know who. And he's a cop! Do I really want a cop? I don't know?! I don't think I can handle it! Who knows, but my favorite guy will be here this weekend. Yes, Johnny will be here late Friday night or early Saturday morning...YIPEE! I'm so excited!
We will see what happens!

Empty Promises by Brittany Denise Grant| Lulu Poetry

Empty Promises by Brittany Denise Grant Lulu Poetry

Making it....well, sort of!

So I think I am ok with this whole "friend" thing....I know I said verbally a thousand times that I was ok with it, but I wasn't really. I hate being the friend. Why can't I be the girl friend? Is it because I enjoy the things that guys enjoy so they do not look past that?
And since I'm officially giving Johnny the address to my blog, I wonder what he is going to say. Probably, may be we shouldn't be friends....Lord knows!
Or should I even let him read my blog? He wants to...he's asked to before, but I may just wait until next weekend.

Wishes....

We all remember when we were kids that our parents told us we could wish on a star and it would come true. Go figure, they weren't right. It was nothing more than a lie.
I wish all wishes could come true. If that were so, I would still be in Mississippi and with my husband. But seeing that it's not that way, I'm stuck here in Texas. Not that Texas is all that bad, but basically I wouldn't be in the situation I find myself in. I mean, how many 24 year old do you know that are going through exactly what I'm going through.....NONE!
I want to keep it simple. I want to live my life. I want to have my baby. And I want to be loved. Is that too much to ask for? Am I allowed that least bit of happiness? Someone tell me

Mr. Perfect, Not So Perfect

I've been waiting on doing this post....Mr. Perfect aka Johnny, well, let's just say we don't fit. You know the old saying, "It's not you, it's me." Yes, it was used on me....can you believe it!? Here I am...3 days before South Padre getting things together and he breaks things off. I'm so disgusted right now. And that was a few days ago.
Yes, granted, we are still talking. He is still coming to Eli's birthday. But I don't know if I can do this friend thing. My heart in a way has been broken. I let my guard down. Man, am I a fool.
He supposed to be coming down next weekend. Do you think I'm going to behave? Probably not...hell, I'm pregnant....I have needs! Don't I deserve something? I guess that's what you get when you let your heart win instead of your head.....I should have said no....Until another day