So it's been well over a month since my last entry. And I wish I could say things have changed for me, but they haven't. I'm more depressed than ever. And may be it's just the "baby blues" but don't know.
I feel like life keeps throwing curve balls and I keep striking out. The only good thing is Eli is getting bigger and Cristin will be here soon. I really don't know what's going to happen when she gets here. Hunter is going to fight for custody of Eli and is wanting a DNA test on Cristin. I'm worried about what will happen with that.
There is a new guy. He's great, but it's going extremely slow. It's for obvious reasons, though. But I have decided not to do the tubal ligation because of him. I just hope I'm making the right decision. Not that any decision here lately has been the right one.
I'm sure time will tell on these matters. Just pray for me and the kids. Pray this whole thing hurries along.
